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Sunday, 23 March 2008
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I am alive.
Okay so a year an a half? I know. So sorry. . . I guess Facebook has really won the blog war, with myspace coming in close second. But I guess it's time for an update (and well, maybe a little bit of a recap first). . .
I am doing very well, probably the best I have since most of us were last together. It has been a slow and gradual climb from the"bottom" that I hit when I had a complete breakdown in the fall of 2004.
I was home for about 9 months, hardly doing anything, suffering from extreme anxiety and depression. It was the hardest thing I've ever experienced, but, I would come through it as a new and better person. I began volunteering at my church office and eventually got a job at a pet store (July of 2005.)
In January of 2006, I returned to the YWAM base in (Youth With a Mission) Lausanne, Switzerland and worked at the YWAM base for 5 months doing reception, hospitality, cooking, supervising housekeeping work duty and other various things. In June of 06, I was blessed enough to get to go to the Hurlach base in Germany and take part in the World Cup Conference there. God really spoke to me alot in that time and I began to make some decisions about my future.
I returned home and again worked at the pet store (6 months) until I left for England in January of 2007. I spent 6 months at the Holmsted Manor YWAM base taking the School of Design and the School of Digital Communications. I really enjoyed them and was amazed at how well I was able to handle the heavy project load, staying up late often and even all night a few times in order to complete assignments. I was still struggling alot though in the way of emotional and spiritual understanding.
It has been a long process for me trying to really get to know who I am and feel confident of my identity in Christ. Even though the worst of the depression ended a couple of years ago, it has been an agonizingly slow process to get to a point where I feel like I am me again (even if it is a different me.) You know, to feel comfortable in my own "skin." I struggled with motivation for a long time and felt like all I was doing was eating, sleeping and working.
I got back from England last July (07) and immediately moved out of my parents house into a place with my cousin. We live in the developed basement and share the main level with the homeowner and another housemate who lives upstairs. (If you want to see photos of our place and recent photos of me, I just posted some new ones on my Facebook site.) It has been so great living with Kristi. We both feel we have grown and experienced so much over the last 8 months and are closer than sisters.
I worked at the pet store again for a few months but am now working 3-4 days a week at my church's office (Southview Alliance) I am also trying to pursue some freelance graphic design work on the side.
Life is pretty good right now, I still have my struggles of course, but it is nice to have relief from so much discouragement and so many tears. The last 4 years have been and might always be the hardest of my life, but I know they have a purpose. I know Christ has been with me, picking up the shattered pieces of me and rebuilding me into a stronger, wiser, more beautiful person. I know I have not suffered in vain.
Right now I am enjoying my job and building new relationships with other people my age at my church, and beyond. God continues to amaze me and I grow a little bit more each day. I am excited to continue in the life He has planned for me.
Love much,
-Deanne Poschwatta
Thursday, 25 January 2007
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YWAM Holmsted England, week 1 . . .
Well I got here safely and the place is even more amaizing than I expected.
But cold. It's quite chilly this week, they even got some snow (a
rare occurance here). The design classroom is great but also super
cold. We sit at our desks wearing our coats and mitts and sip tea and
warm our noses under our halogen desk lamps. Hopefully it will get
warmer soon!
Looks like the course is going to be super cool and super busy.
Already had a night where I was up until 2:30 doing my journal intro
etc. But I think once we get in the flow it will get easier. My
class of 5 is small (3 staff, 2 students) but super cool. We've
already bonded and had some good laughs over Starbucks. The whole
base dynamic is quite fun and friendly.
Strangely enough, I haven't had alot of computer time, as the internet
here is somewhat slow. So I'll try to stay in touch.
Here's some quick pics of the base and the snow. Talk to ya'll soon!
-Dee
Monday, 15 January 2007
Wednesday, 11 October 2006
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I seriously almost peed myself when I head this. Don't listen to this with a full bladder. . .
Liberace the hamster
Friday, 06 October 2006
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Here are some photos to go with my last post. Me and some of my sweet babies a work:
me with a really poofy, cute bunny (yes, our uniform are like safari outfits. Steve Irwin would be proud. . .
awwwww. . . .
baby bunnikins!
My bro with an adorable Pomeranian x Mini American Eskimo puppy.
A sweet kitten that my friend Rachel ended up adopting and naming "Joey".
Poppers, the baby chinchilla I got to foster last year. Cutest little thing ever!
Deebrio
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- Name: Deanne
- Birthday: 2/5/1985
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 4/26/2004
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